why dont you do something a little more extreme?
i personally am atheist and although i was was born into roman catholism i renounced it. but even when i was into religion i thought heaven could never really be heaven because my idea of a personal heaven is a bunch of babes and the clock crew together partying all night, but alas, the christian god would never allow that... anyways, your flash was a bit too much too read but i read it. but personally if you are into philosphy of life and so on, you should really look into the exstastentionalists (i cant spell), and perhaps even modernist poetry, like the over rated t.s. elliot. anyways, i cant help you get to hell, so keep trying my friend